While I was not the loudest person in the world, I relate to Lauren’s experiences of being socially awkward, feeling different, and often being overwhelmed by emotion, particularly embarrassment and self consciousness. However, I’ve never had a problem with having to deviate from a cherished routine, mostly because I also have ADHD and I would be overjoyed to actually be able to develop one, much less keep it. My awareness of autism also came in lapping waves over the years. I always knew I was a bit slower to reach stages of development, ie “a late bloomer” but I eventually caught on to whatever “common sense” the “normies” had sooner.
Listen if you want to add nuance to your idea of what it means to be on the autistic spectrum that is at neither end of it but somewhere on there. Plus, she’s interesting and fun to listen to.
I highly recommend this podcast. She has a dry wit and a streak of snark that make it entertaining as well as informative.